11:11 on 11/11/11

How did I spend this epic day? Watching EVERY single Harry Potter movie with my family of course! Haha. Last night we pulled out the mattresses from the boys room and my whole family camped out in the living room while we watched number 1 & 2. Then we started number 3 while we had breakfast and spent the rest of the afternoon watching numbers 4, 5, and 6. We didn't have either part of number 7 so Kyle and I ran to Target and bought them and we watched them while we ate dinner. I felt like such a bumm and nerd all at the same time, but it was a lot of fun. I loved spending all day lounging around watching movies with my family. We're cool; get over it :)

Some days are great! Today was not one of them.

Okay so seriously, here are some of the events of my life in the past 24 hours:
-i got stuck in traffic for over an hour and moved a total distance of about 2 miles. A guy in a wheelchair, whom we had passed about 12 blocks earlier, passed by us-not a motorized scooter, a WHEELCHAIR. Ha. The guy in the car in front of me took a nap. A guy in a car a few behind me parked his car and crossed the street to the gas station convenience store to buy some snacks. I sat there and called my mom to rant about it until my phone died and then I just listened to a cd...3 times. And what was the cause of all of this nonsense you may ask? A TRAIN. Like a 4 engine, 30 something car train. That decided now was the best possible time to stop in the middle of the tracks and switch tracks and then change cars. No big deal. Needless to say, I was extremely annoyed when I got home.
-I'm stressed out about school. Enough said.
-On the way to institute we were running late and I was in a hurry. In my rush, I set my protein shake on the roof of my Jeep as I put my stuff in the back seat and then got in and drove off to pick up Rebekah, forgetting I set my shake up there. Don't worry, I was quickly reminded as I turned the corner and saw chocolate shake running down my windshield and door. Haha, at this point in the night, all I could do was laugh.

My friend once told me I should write a book about my life; I'm starting to think he was right.

Fear The Beard.

Baseball pants. Fake beard. Black swim cap. Yup, it must be Halloween! Hahaha. I still can't really believed I dressed up like this but it was pretty fun. And I must say, I turned a few heads ;) HA!

mark my words...

i NEVER thought i would be saying this but...
i miss Rexburg! Even the cold weather! Crazy, right?! Haha..
But seriously, i do. Don't get me wrong, i absolutely LOVE my family and i am so glad that i get to be home close to them but being here makes me miss the great things all around me in Idaho. I wish i could just have the best of both worlds... i've tried convincing my family about 248,463.7 times that they should just move to Utah or Idaho so that they're closer to me but still far enough away ;) Ha. And i was serious about that cold comment..i kinda almost miss the snow. But i'm pretty sure that will fade after about a day of having to walk to class. California, if you're listening, i'm ready for fall...so make it happen!
So pretty much, i work...i play around...i cook dinner for my family...i go to institute... i go to church and teach the Sunbeams...and then i do it all over again. Exciting huh? Working at the Dentist office has been quite the adventure! In all honesty, i like it. There are things that i'm not exactly crazy about but 'tis life. I'm super grateful for it! I had this whole week off while Dr. was in Boston so i had LOTS of free time... too much probably. I did some shopping but the big event of the week was signing a contract to live at Royal Crest and...drum roll please.....working on my grad plan! Haha i'm lame, i know. But it feels good to have some sort of idea now about what i need to do the next few years i just hope i can do it all..at the rate i'm going i'll finish up in,oh about- 10 more semesters?? haha guess i better kick it in gear and get a little more motivated!
But life's good! Fake it 'til you make it, eh? :)

...and I'm A Mormon!

I believe in Christ—my Lord, my God!
My feet he plants on gospel sod.
I'll worship him with all my might;
He is the source of truth and light.
I believe in Christ; he ransoms me.
From Satan's grasp he sets me free,
And I shall live with joy and love
In his eternal courts above.
 

I believe in Christ; he stands supreme!
From him I'll gain my fondest dream;
And while I strive through grief and pain,
His voice is heard: "Ye shall obtain."
I believe in Christ; so come what may,
With him I'll stand in that great day
When on this earth he comes again
To rule among the sons of men.

i think that sometimes the best way to express our feelings is through music and hearing this song during conference just reminded me of the testimony that i have been blessed with. The last two verses stand out so strong to me! "I'll worship him with ALL my might; He is the source of TRUTH and LIGHT. With Him I'll stand at that great day, when on this earth he comes again" SO POWERFUL! 

I love my Father in Heaven for all that He has given me and all that He continues to bless me with every day. I am so grateful to my elder brother and Savior, Jesus Christ, who loved you and I so much that he was willing to suffer and sacrifice more than we can even understand so that we have the ability to live with our Father again. I am glad to be a member of the only true church on the earth today, The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and I strive each and every day to become a better disciple of Him. I want to be an example to those around me so that not only by the words that I say but more importantly by the things that I do, others will know that I love and follow my Heavenly Father. I am grateful for Joseph Smith and for the sacrifices that he made so that we would have the opportunity to have the Gospel in our lives today. I know that the Book of Mormon is true and that it can teach us things each time we read it. I know that Thomas S Monson is a true Prophet, called of God to help lead and guide us in these days. He is an important instrument in the Lord's hands and will never lead us astray. I believe in the power of the Preisthood and am grateful for those in my life who live worthy to hold it. I love my family, each and every one of them, and am blessed with their love and support throughout my life. Someday I will be sealed to the love of my life in the temple and will have a family of my own. I love my Father in Heaven and He knows me, of this I am sure. He listens to me wants and needs through the power of prayer and He wants what is best for me. He has a plan and a purpose for me and if I do my best to do what's right, I will be blessed and accomplish that purpose.

I Am A Child Of God :)

i love the words to this song!

I'm so happy that it's conference weekend! Being able to listen to the words of a living Prophet and Apostles on the earth today is such a great blessing in my life! Call me weird, but i seriously get so excited when the conference issues of the Ensign come out and i get to read through the talks over and over and over again for six months until we get to hear from them again :)

time doesn't change everything...

i think when we dream at night, our dreams are our minds way of telling us "Stop pretending! This is what you really want..."

And lately, i've been dreaming.

Sometimes i kinda hate dreaming because eventually you wake up and realize it was all in your head. That can be both good or bad- depends what you're dreaming of haha. On Sunday, somebody showed up and let's just say, i wasn't expecting him. It literally was the strangest feeling i think i've ever experienced to watch him pull into the parking lot next to us. My heart all of the sudden was pounding a billion times faster than it was just seconds before and i felt like i'd swallowed a whole school of fish that were just swimmin' around in my stomach. But on the outside no one would know, i played it cool. But i just kept thinking to myself "i shouldn't be happy to see him! What the heck Nicole, knock it off!" So i made my way inside the church and sat down as quick as i could. He sat in the front, i sat towards the back...this would be fine. i could handle this. Just ignore him. Besides, there is a boy in Texas that i'm crazy about! The distance and months apart are really hard and we don't always talk much so it's hard to know what's gonna happen, but still, i can't forget about him. i think of him as much as i used to think about that boy sitting up there, who i didn't think i'd ever see again... but now he's here. And i am the most confused i think i've ever felt. So just ignore him, that's my genius plan, and it worked out really well- until the opening song. i realized that there are some peoples voices that no matter how long you're apart, or even how hard you try you won't ever be able to forget.  So obviously, it was hard. Much harder than i would have thought, all things considered. There were quite a few times (by accident? coincidence? call it what you want) over the next three hours that we were right there together, in the same room, inches away from eachother yet neither of us said a thing. How sad is that? Seriously. if i could go back, i'd change that. And then, as we're leaving, walking out to the car, he runs over and says "Sister Whitfield! I've been trying to talk to you..." and continues on talking to my mom. But what did i do? Well i turned around facing away from him and stood there like an idiot looking at the ground until i finally walked away over to the car. What the.... ?! i don't think i could have been more stupid and just flat out RUDE. But i wasn't thinking. i was confused about how i felt and i panicked. On the way home i realized almost instantly as we left the parking lot that i regretted acting the way i did. i should have said something, at least a simple "hi". That's when i realized that, chances are, i've been lying to myself about how i really felt. Which causes me to be even more confused. A lot has changed in the year that's gone by, and i'm a different person than i was, as i'm sure he is too. And now i can't help but to wish that i would've talked to him when i had the chance...